Comedian Kim Ki Ri has shared his sincere feelings, opening up for the first time about the pain of miscarriage he experienced with his wife, Moon Ji-in. He left a deep impression by confessing how he tried to maintain a calm exterior but could not hide his emotions during moments of solitary prayer, and how they eventually found hope through a new life that arrived after a long wait.
On the 6th, a video titled "Games, Alcohol, Smoking... Addictions I Couldn't Quit, the Decisive Moment That Changed Kim Ki Ri's Life" was posted on the YouTube channel 'Lee Seong-mi's I Can't Go.' During the video, Kim conversed with MC Lee Seong-mi, honestly recounting the experiences of pregnancy, miscarriage, and the journey to becoming parents after marriage.
When Lee cautiously brought up the time of his first pregnancy and miscarriage, Kim retraced his emotions step by step. "When I first heard the news of the pregnancy, I laughed so much," he said. "People around me suggested preparing for IVF, but I believed that God would give us a child. At the time, I thought that faith was correct."
However, the joy did not last long. He experienced an unexpected and massive loss when he miscarried his first child. Kim confessed, "I was so flustered when I heard the news of the miscarriage," and admitted, "In truth, I was just pretending to be okay." He explained that while he tried to appear composed for his wife, a sense of sadness and emptiness that was difficult to handle settled in his heart.
He recalled that it was during prayer that he faced his emotions as they truly were for the first time. "While praying, I felt I was being told to honestly tell God about the resentment I felt in my heart," he said. "It was my first time praying like that. I remember crying while saying, 'To be honest, I was very disappointed.'"
Recalling that time, Kim said, "I didn't sob loudly. My lips were trembling, and unable to suppress the surging emotions, I said, 'This is not something I can just pass by. I think I've just been pretending to be okay.'" He added, "After pouring out all the stories in my heart, I actually received great comfort, and my heart felt much lighter."
The process of meeting a child after the miscarriage was not smooth. They repeated IVF treatments but did not get the desired results, leading to a period of physical and mental exhaustion. He surprised viewers by revealing, "It was so hard as we kept facing failures. Eventually, I made up my mind, saying, 'Let's stop now. Let's let go of the IVF,' and after that, the baby came to us naturally."
Kim also mentioned that through that time, he was able to reflect on his own life. "While praying, there were many times I asked myself, 'Is there something lacking in me to become a parent?'" he said. "Looking back, I saw things I needed to fix, and I tried to change those things one by one. Through that process, I think my heart became a little stronger."
His confession showed that the process of waiting to become parents was not merely a time directed toward a result, but also a time to reflect on one's life and grow. His experience of facing and accepting the pain honestly rather than hiding it provided empathy and comfort to many.
Moon Ji-in married Kim in 2024, and the two experienced the pain of miscarriage once after marriage. They subsequently succeeded in a natural pregnancy and welcomed a new life, and are currently continuing their preparations to become parents.
